I was diagnosed with Prostate Cancer in 2008 and following problems with erectile disfunction fitted with an AMS LGX700 Penile Implant in July 2013.
Loads has happened and is going to happen to me and if by doing this I can help another person, partner or family who is going through a similar thing, that's cool.
Have a good read from the start, check the archives and any questions, please just ask.
It is 33 weeks since I had my implant surgery and as well as
giving you general updates on my progress, life etc. I wanted to have one
specific in depth topic each post covering both the physical and emotional side
of my journey.I will still answer you
all individually so keep the questions coming but for each post I plan to pick
a specific topic and go into more detail.As always I will be as clear and honest as I can.
So ask away!!!
Hope that all makes sense, well here goes....
One of the questions I get asked often is to do with pain
and how it actually feels to have the implant in my body.
We all have a different take on pain and although I believe
I have quite a high pain threshold I will and do react differently to the next
man and to the next.As you have seen
from the photos way back, although initially my shaft and scrotum were quite bruised
and swollen the actual pain I felt was minimal.It was more uncomfortable than painful and in my case a couple of pain
killers before I went to bed were enough to take that discomfort away with the
relief lasting throughout the night and the majority of the next day.To start most pain/discomfort came from the
site of the reservoir (only when I was dressed).My reservoir seems to have been placed exactly
where the waistband of any clothes I wear sit.With sweatpants or shorts it was and is fine and seems to give me very
little discomfort.If I wear jeans or anything
with a tighter waistband it can get quite uncomfortable, even now if I am sat
for long periods of time in the same position say on car journeys or at a desk
it can still get a bit uncomfortable, not uncomfortable enough to take pain
relief but enough for a bit of adjustment.That goes for anything in the shaft or scrotum, a slight adjustment and
My new nickname
because I’m always
sorting my nuts…
As I have described previously, for the first three months
or so there was some soreness in the head of my penis where the tips of the
implant pushed as I stretched and inflated to the max, that soreness has now gone
completely and has since about month three/four and even though I am still
slowly stretching there is no pain at all.In the actual shaft there has never been any pain a bit of soreness but
nothing much however the scrotum was initially a different matter.I did mention way back that the first couple
of inflations were for me very painful in fact the first inflation by the nurse
had me sweating and reaching for the ceiling.How to describe it - you have all now seen my tattoos, well for those
who had a bit of a mid-life crisis like me and got yourself a tattoo well the feeling
is very similar – except it was like lots of needles pricking the inside of my
scrotum at every squeeze of the bulb instead of my skin.
If you’ve never got a tattoo please don’t get one on my
account just to get an idea of the pain <grin>.
None of the pain has ever for me been unbearable and at the next
inflation appointment I was ready for her.A couple of pain killers on the way to the appointment and it was a
doddle, still a bit uncomfortable but so much easier for me it just that first
inflation that was bad.
As you have read I have spoken at length about my penis,
scrotum, testicles and shaft, well there is another end to the implant that
sits deep around the pelvis somewhere that I have never mentioned.Me not knowing exactly where the other end is
and it being “somewhere” shows that I have never had any problem with it – from
day one I have never felt it, it does not hurt, it’s not uncomfortable, it’s
just there doing whatever it does.
Now 33 weeks post surgery I can honestly say that all of the
pain and discomfort has gone.
After 6 pumps
As you can see the only thing I have not managed to do is to
get a wax and tidy-up – it’s far too sensitive – in a good way - and I’m not too
good with a razor either – so for me, for the time being it’s going to be
Now for how it feels to have the implant in my body.
Emotionally I can honestly say I have gone from feeling
emotionally a 3 to now being at least a 10.It will not be the same for everyone and we have all had or want
implants for different reasons.For me I
wanted back my masculinity and sense of well-being.Physically I wanted my body to be in
proportion again and I wanted to stop being resentful and angry.Some of those feeling came from the Prostate
Cancer and some from my inability to have an erection, either way getting my
implant has enabled me to have all of that back and more.I am happier and more content with life in
general.My confidence is back, I always
was a bit full of myself anyway <grin> perhaps it’s back even more than
Prior to having my implant I described the Implant to my
partner as a couple of long rubber tubes with hard tips lots of other tubes and
a small “Lego” brick with a bulb attached to the side.I was convinced that “the boys” would hit and
rub against the corners of the “brick” and hurt and that the tips would hurt
way beyond what I could cope with and the other tubes would be everywhere.There has been nothing, no pain or rubbing
from inside my scrotum.Apart from the
slight bit of extra weight in the scrotum when it hangs and the very occasional
adjustment I do not even know it’s there.My pump has settled slightly above and behind my testicles.You cannot see it, even if you know it’s
there and unless you actually feel the scrotum you would never, ever know.The other tubes are hidden and apart from one
that I can feel if I really, really try everything is hidden.To inflate I put three fingers behind the
“block” to steady it and squeeze the bulb with my thumb it’s so easy.If in the future I have less strength in my
hands I am sure I will still be able to use it without any problem.It’s not uncomfortable and it’s not painful
it is just part of the new me.The bulb
feels like another testicle (and it’s as slippery).It can sometimes slip as I squeeze but even
then there is no pain it just means that I have not held it correctly.
The feeling I get when inflating is not the same feeling I
had from my natural erection.Inflation
and deflation is a process, I can feel each squeeze of the bulb stretching the
shaft, I can feel it growing in girth and length and it does become extremely
hard (think back to when you were a teenager).The biggest changes now have come from arousal which I suppose is how it
should be.I can’t really remember
exactly when I started to get the engorgement of the head and surrounding shaft
back but it was a gradual thing.I think
it came back fully at around month 7.That coupled with the return of sensitivity and for me as I have said so
many times my implant has been the perfect solution to the situation I found