Week 13 - Update

Well the visit to the hospital on the 24th October went ok. 

After plenty of squeezing, bending and pulling the doctors didn’t seem overly concerned (very strange laying there in all your glory with two doctors squeezing and discussing my willy).

 

Anyway, there does not seem to be too much to worry about at the moment, although one tip from the implant does seem to be a bit close to the surface – the one I was worried about.  I have been told to keep an eye out for any redness on the surface which could mean that I am getting erosion.  Other than that continue inflating to stretch the tissue which I am doing and I will see them again in three months

No pain or discomfort at all now and after the way the doctors pulled it around I am not quite so scared of it (fancy being scared of your own penis).  I think the key now is to get the implant embedded into the head properly and the only way I can see to do that is to manipulate the implant a bit as I inflate.

I am going to try and get a bit techy and do a short video of the inflation/deflation process.  Could be ok or a complete disaster – Watch this space.

Cheers for now

Dave

Week 12 (time goes by so quickly)

Not too much happening at the moment.  Apart from being pleased with my implant.  I know it’s not for everyone but having tried everything else available I know that it was the right route for me.

I have my appointment on the 24^th October to discuss my slight concerns about any change in the placement of my implant.  I have to admit apart from being able to feel the tips quite close to the surface at the back of the shaft everything else feels good, no red marks or soreness, perhaps I am just being over cautious.

I have noticed that the cooler weather is having quite an impact, although I am larger than I was cold still has the same effect it ever did of tightening everything and it can be quite uncomfortable – warm baths help – showers just don’t seem to do it.  The bath is also beneficial both with inflation and the general feel of the implant throughout the day and night for that matter.  Even when I am fully deflated I am still aware most of the time that I have an implant.  My flaccid state although apart from size is similar in looks defiantly feels firmer than it ever did before surgery.

I am discovering new things all the time and although I have previously said the implant is becoming part of me - it is a new part of my body different in size and weight and it takes time to get used to it.



The bump the tip is just by my thumb




Again the tip is just below the head

Hopefully you can see where the tips of the implant are placed now (not any easy picture to get), much further down and not really supporting the head.  Perhaps that is where they are meant to be now that the swelling has gone and all is good and it’s just me. I will see what the doctor says on the 24^th and go from there. 

I know that physically I have changed and I now have the ability to do almost everything sexually I could prior to surgery.  Mentally I can feel changes as well. I am not one of life’s deep thinkers and I know that this may sound odd to some but I feel masculine again and because I feel better about myself the anger I felt towards having Prostate Cancer is going.  When I can figure it out I will write more on that side of the journey.

At the moment the one thing I do know is that having got this far I want it to be right and I want to be 100% happy with the result and if that means a revision or a slight adjustment so be it. We shall see!!!

Cheers for now

Dave

Back to reality

It's now 11 weeks since I had my surgery and I wanted to give you an update on progress so far.

Had a bit of a panic the day before I was due to go away on holiday.  Now that all of te swelling has gone I can now really feel the tips below the head of my penis (to me they feel as if they are just below the surface). I had not really noticed any changes but for some reason they do seem to have moved from where they were originally - from central and well into the head of my penis they have moved right to the back of the shaft and the tips now finish near to the base of the head, giving me the one thing I wanted to avoid - a floppy head!!

I did try to take a photo to show you but could not get a good shot so I will try again later.

Anyway I panicked, travelled 3 hours to see the consultant who seems to think that the the implant is in the ideal position.  He did say that the "floppy head" can be corrected by "a couple of stitches" - Hum mm not convinced about that one, we shall see!!

He has now arranged for me to go to the clinic on the 24 October to have a scan to see if there has been any erosion and to discuss the options (fingers crossed).

We had a brilliant holiday and as I said no problems at either airport.

Now back to reality and work!!!

Cheers for now.
Dave

I'm Back

Just a quick post...

Back from my trip.  Little bit uncomfortable swimming in the sea and pool other than that all was fine.

Best thing - No problems at either airport!!!

Will update properly once I am sorted.

Dave